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the reason why i havent been blogging often is cos BLOGGER KEEPS DYING ON ME. and therefore im abandoning blogger! NOW! byebye blogger! (ALLITERATION)

hope this post will be saved successfully, cos this is my new blog! http://xanga.com/totallynothappening

sorry i very lazy to link, so just copy the url then paste la. or like, just be hardworking and type it yourself! totally not happening! so easy!

byebyeeeeeeeeeee/

xian
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k im in such a bad mood today. dunno why. oh actually i know why. haha. whaaaaaatever. sigh.

SO IF YOU DONT WANNA SEE EMO STUFF OR UNHAPPY THINGS, DONT SCROLL DOWN. OKAY? I WARN YOU ALREADY. IF YOU GO READ THEN YOU NOT HAPPY, NOT MY FAULT OKAY!!!!! OK! DONT SCROLL DOWN UH!








sigh its like all the small small things just make me unhappy only la. sigh. and it didnt really help that i had only half an hour breaks between my two options. aaaaahhh really very sian, everyday got genomic origin. today was stress again! got some assessment la gv and i were totally stressing. sigh.

this rly sucks? everything i come into contact with is not happy. the songs im listening to are all emo emo.i know its my fault tt im listening to emo songs, but i like them leh, but after i hear them im emo. HAHA. okay whateverr? and the show im watching is also not happy one. sigh.

whats up with this world. whats up with everyone. whats up with everything. im so unhappy and upset. i keep getting disappointed by ppl around me. nothing's been going well these days.

i hate options. its either have no free time at all, or like have 5.5hrs free time. sian. i cant believe it what am i supposed to do from 10.30 to 4pm you tell me. and everyone got options at 1.30 or 2. and i dont wanna go out until 1plus then come back to sch at 2. then 2hrs in school so sian ok. aahhh whatever.

all smiles doesnt equal to happiness. being all dazed doesnt mean unhappiness. whatever.

shall EAT some mooncake and icecream to keep myself happy. byebye. im in such a terrible mood. sigh.

xian
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HELLO. week 1. term 4. sec 4. O-P-T-I-O-N-S, OPTIONS.

yeahh uhuh uhuh OPTIONS. quite COOL in a sense that got sooooo much free time, and sometimes can go sch a bit late :D not cool in a sense that we end sooo much later, and not all the options are fun. YEAHHHHHH.

well my options were kinda screwed cos i loserloser, thought analysing talk is ENRICH. then never go first lesson -.-" WHAT A LOSER RIGHT! hahaha. then i loserloser never check the inet, didnt know that genomic origin week 4 to 6 push forward to week 1 to 3. so i missed first lesson of genomic origin too! then i loserloser AGAIN, thought that know your body was advanced, so 4 of us went into the classroom sit down there like losers waiting for teacher to come in. HAHAHAHA. seriously, IM SUPER LOSER!

but ohwellssssss. ANALYSING TALK HAS BEEN SUPER FUN!!!!! omgosh omgosh. apparently rj is gona have some subject that comprises of discourse or sth? then if like that then i wanna take the subject! cos its like SUPER COOL OKAYYYYYY. hahaha then our assessment is like, record conversations then transcript them and like, analyse them. AHHHH SO FUN WHEEEE :D

today's genomic origin was S-T-R-E-S-S STRESSSSSSSS omgosh chiong the experiment!!! hahaha but quite cool la :D and miss lee is quite funny also hahaha :D got THICKKKK set of notes to read =/ shrugs but its like, EVERYDAY? mygosh. go home so late, and no free time. :( BLAHBLAHBLAH.

next week got KNOW YOUR BODYYYYYY!!! hahaha SO EXCITING. we'll see abt that.

oh and math test was just like, WHAT-EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. sigh. die? bye. (yea its supposed to rhyme. HAHAHA. whatever?)

stupid philo test tmr :( IM SO STRESSED LA. dunno why. its like everyone's mugging so hard. sigh. i must at least get adequate la, if not HOW?!?!?! aargh i dont like philo :( seriously its too abstract for me la, cant blame me for being stupid and dumb right?!?!?!? :( hmpfh!

ahhhh tmr got genomic againnnn. hahaha. and my gosh after tmr FREE ALRDY LA. CAN SLACK ALRDY. i get so excited and happy thinking abt life after philo test :) wheeeeheeee. K I KNOW THERES STILL PHILO ORALS BUT WHATEVERRRRR? just forget abt it first :D

okok. shall go eat my mum's spaghetti now. ITS SO NICE OKAYYYY. and IM HUNGRY. yay! byebyeeeeeeee.

xian
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IN SOOTH I DO KNOW WHY I AM SO SAD, IT WEARIES ME, IT DOESNT WEARY YOU. (duh, cos you're not me!) i totally checked my options? and im like in TWO sciences? and one english!!?! like shrugs? KNOW YOUR BODY and GENOMIC ORIGIN! what know your body. like shrugs la? =/ but im glad i got genomic origin wheeeee! but ummm..... i got ANALYSING TALK for eng ): AHHHHHH i want my beauty beasts and enchantment :(

and omgosh math. MATH. is like, DOWN THERE. oh noooooo ): aiyeeeeeer. i feel like eating sth but im sooo full. shrugs ):

oh and HEYHEYHEY, tomorrow got HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2!!!!!! OH-MY-GOSH-LIKE-TOTALLY. okay! i shall go see if disney channel/cartoon network/nickelodeon has anything nice to watch! yeah!

and im still in love with CANT FIGHT THE MOONLIGHT :) WHEEEEE SO NICE. haha the song seems super long cos its kinda repetitive. but, what-everrrrrrr! :) BYEBYE.

xian
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hello-oh! as im typing im thinking if this post will EVER get published? trust me i blog a few posts alrdy but blogspot is sooooo nice it just died on me?!?! uhuh uhuh.

oh no only left few more days of hols!!! CANT BELIEVE IT ALRIGHT. :(((( never really made good use of the past few days. well, i have never really made good use of any holiday anyway. shrugs. havent mugged philo and math OMGOSH OMGOSH. but whatever. going SHOPPING TMR!!!!!!!!! :D :D YAYYYYYYYYYY. throw away work la. hahaah x)

EEEEYER so far i only watched ONE MOVIE. ONE ONE ONE ONE ONE ONLY! :( Evan Almighty. hahah i wanna watch SO MANY MORE!!! Secret, Hairspray, License to Wed, Ratatouille and HARRY POTTER HAHA I KNOW NO MORE ALRDY LAAAA...... :( thats why im sad! hahaha. righhhhht. im so deprived!

and i finally found out the name of this song! CANT FIGHT THE MOONLIGHT! ahhhhh LOVE IT. LOOOOOOOOVE IT. i know its super old but what-everrrrr! :)

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark
You'll surrender your heart
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight, no
You can't fight it
It's gonna get to your heart

yes i know, yes i know that i, cant fight the moonlight nooooo. hahaha of cos i cant fight the moonlight. haha i love the moonlight, so pretty right? yeahhhhh. :)sunrise very pretty also laaaa. omgosh one day i really want to go see sunrise!!! SO PRETTY AND ROMANTIC HAHA!! :D

tmr must wake up kinda earlyyyy! shall go to bed now YEAHHHHH. i know i wont be able to slp but okay WHAT-EVERRRRRRRRR. hahaha my eye bags are bigger than my eyes. YUCKS. my eyes are so small alrdy! :( CRIES. ahahaha..

okay WHAT-EVERRR. nights.

xian
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feeling much better! maybe cos of all the sleep and food and tv i've been getting these days. although i didnt really sort out my thinkings, i might as well just try to forget about it.... i know its like some dominant volcano, any moment will erupt, but at least HEY its dominant right, not eruption. i'll just worry until my next eruption. uhuhuh. get what im talking about or not?!?! hahahaha nvm nvm if you dont get it la.

anyway, just did the vs chinese practise paper today. rmb? the one tt lao shi gave?!?! yupyup. the last chinese passage... very inspirational. go read it! or rather, go do the paper! its super hard. but still, the main point is, the last passage (2B) is so inspirational. like instead of being so attached to everything, might as well dont be so attached, then when you lose anything, you wont feel so sad or depressed, cos you never really possessed it anyway. get it? cos if you're attached to everything, your heart an soul will be exposed to tremendous happiness when you receive it, but tremendous depression when you lose it. get it? so might as well just keep everything cool and keep some space, when you get a bit of it, quite happy, and when you lose it, you wont be so depressed or anything, cos you're not like really attached to it. so you can be cool and let it go. COOL RIGHT. i think the passage was so inspirational. when my mum explained to me i was like !!!!!!!!!!! PHILOSOPHICAL HUH! hahaha!

lol lol. im off to watch totally spies on disney channel now. byebye winners, jiayou for chinese and chem ok! dont get distracted by other things and other ppl la, right now exams most impt. get it? work hard!

xian
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good evening everyone. yup yup. most of the exams over. left with chinese paper now. so byebye to all my anti social days, byebye to staying up late, byebye to self-control. hahaha...

today is a rest day, i'll just start doing the practise papers tomorrow ok? yea. me myself and chinese. hahaha... somehow i dont feel very lightened. lols. lots of love, laugh out loud. haha see what lol can stand for? through this, you can see, one single thing can have different meanings. for instance, puns in lit. right? ya okay. dont know what im talking about.

DISCLAIMER: IF YOU DONT LIKE ANGSTY / PESSISMISTIC PEOPLE / IF YOU SIMPLY HATE ME, PLEASE STOP READING, PRESS CLOSE. I'LL BE VERY GRATEFUL TO YOU. and if you decide to continue, remember its not my fault already okay! i tell you not to read already!!!





nowadays getting really angsty. even after exams also angsty. hahahah SO LOSER!!!! must try to sort out my thinkings. during physics paper i was really not concentrating cos i had all my angsty thoughts. hahaha lol ok whatever. over already right? yea thats what all of you say. wait till i get back my results and cry till my eyes swell up. then you'll say marks dont mean everything. ok then lets all drop out of school and lets jusdt go for character development courses. OKAY? haha. SO FUNNY!!!!

losing confidence in everything now! haha dunno why im doing all the things im doing now. when you do things with no apparent reasons, its both a good and a bad thing. yupyups!

how i wish i can go on a magic carpet ride. shining shimmering splendid world!! then let me regain my confidence in this world im in. hahaha!

i wish i can know the reasons why everything happens. cos everything happens for a reason right? yupyup! i wish im pro enough to know why things happen. then maybe i can prevent them from happening again! yupyups. but.... this is life la. hahahaha :)

alrights alrights im gonna to eat dinner now. byebye everyone. study hard and concentrate on your exams ok? :)

xian
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hello hello. yet again, i know i shouldnt be here now, cos i am, of course, at this point of time, supposed to be mugging like its my passion and my drive in life. but sorry it really aint. therefore i stand here before you, etc etc (DOES IT SOUND LIKE SOME SPEECH LOL HAHAHA)

well. its tuesday today. 7 days from today, our eya would have started. UHUH. ARE YOU READY?!?!? oh whateverrrrr. anyway i really dunno what to mug for english la. SHRUGS. im so confused ):

okay. now on to things thats got me thinking. lately.

as im walking to a bus stop, i see the bus i want to get on. perfect. empty, double decker, and i need to get to my destination real fast, besides, the next bus doesnt come in like, 15min. i really really really REALLY want to get on the bus. but THE THING IS. im like super super far away from the bus stop. like 300 or 400m. or whatever distance. and i know that no matter how fast i run to the bus stop i'll never catch that bus. i know that no matter how loudly i shout or wave to get the bus driver's attention, he wont hear or see me. therefore despite the fact that i reaaaaaally really want to get on the bus, all i can do is to see it drive past me. perfect bus. double decker, empty, and the next bus is gonna come in 15min time, gotta wait for so long! and the next bus will be crowded cos its gonna be peak hour. get disappointed. so i just walk. walk to the bus stop. despite the fact that i know i'll never be able to get on the bus, subconsciously i still run or jog a few metres, with this teeny little hope that i can still get on the bus. but well, the rational side of me told myself that its no point, no hope, therefore, to stop running or even slow jogging, to waste my energy. so how? all i could do was to see the perfect bus drive past, feel helpless and loser, and wait at the bus stop. for another bus. and i know, very well, that the next bus, wont be as empty as this bus, wont be double decker, etc etc. OH, SO SAD.

AND btw if you're thinking if that really happened to me, well it didnt. this 'story' is actually an analogy. try figuring it out.

second story.

candies with fillings.know what are fillings? the liquidy, syrup-y, sometimes sticky thingy inside candies. that are reaaaally nice. :) really. yup. so i was saying. you offered me candies. when i ate them, i thought they had fillings, and tt they tasted reaaaaaally good. like really really. so i offer some candies to you too. candies which were with fillings, candies which i thought tasted really good too. then slowly slowly i realise, the candies you offered to me did not contain fillings. AT ALL. all along i was just like, hallucinating and having illusions? yeah. then i feel kinda cheated, cos i offered you candies WITH fillings! and the candies you offered me were WITHOUT fillings! although i know that you and i both werent obliged to offer each other candies, but i see you so 'nice' offer candies to me, i also offer you back lor. haha then again, its really really not your fault, cos its really my fault that i didnt taste the candies properly and realise that they had no fillings. like, at all. if i realised the candies you offered me had no fillings right from the beginning, maybe i wouldnt have offered you my candies with fillings. or perhaps, maybe i still will? i wonder.

there. 2 stories thats got me thinking. actually i made them up. but they're analogical. so, did i get you thinking? haha, try figuring out these 2 stories. have fun. but i rather you spend time mugging. yup.

feels so good to type everything down :) k gonna be 12 already. i think i shall go eat sth then go slp. feeling hungry. nights winners. in this game, you're the winner, and me, the loser. WOOOOOOW. hahaha. bye.

xian
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havent been here in such a long time! hello hello. i know, i really really know i shldnt be here right now cos tmr theres bio fa and i really dont know ANYTHING. and when some ppl say they dont know anything they dont mean it? cos they DO know something? for some reason ppl like to make themselves seem stupid? but whatever? im truthful and when i say i dont know anything, i REALLY dont know anything. shrugs. im just gonna die for tomorrow. i know its just an fa, but the fact that she's gonna mark it, makes me feel really bad cos she's gonna realise i suck at bio. oh frug it.

and ive been feeling very stupid nowdays, in all ways. be in general knowledge, the things that i do, in terms of academics, everything. thanks so much! life rocks!! make some noise for this amazing wonderful thing called life!!!!! :O!

oh AAAAAND tmr theres nat day rehearsal im actually quite scared ): hopefully everything goes well. go go 408 we can do it. :P

well life has been really interesting so far, everyday wake up, dread sch, go sch, study, sleep, wake up not understanding anything, cant be bothered, then go home, slack, watch tv, slp. YAY BEING A TEENAGER IS SOOO FUN!!! :D :D :D IM LOVING MY LIFE OKAY :)

ooooooh BEST THING TT HAPPENED TO ME TODAY! during math!!! SO COOL, our math eya is like, totally postponed to term4!!! so it means i'll spend my sept hols mugging math! I LOVE MUGGING CAN, ITS MY HOBBY/HABIT. :D :D :D OOOOOOH and our last math test in term 4 wk 5 consists of almost all topics from sec1 to 4! COOLNESS OKAY.its like taking o levels!!! EXCITING!! :) :) im so glad i can experience how its like to take o levels. in preparation for a levels, you see! :)

LIFES LIKE, ROCKING GOOD MANS :) i love rgs! WHEEEEE I LOVE BEING A SEC FOUR I LOVE RGS I LOVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE IN MY LIFE I LOVE THE FACT THAT IM A HUMAN I LOVE THE FACT THAT IM LIVING IN THIS WORLD NOW!! :D :D :D

OKAY. i shall go attempt to study bio. sigh gonna flunk tmr. the whole world is out there mugging now, im the only loser one down here wasting money. because time is money. get it? if you dont get it its alright. i mean who cares? so what? life goes on!!! yeah! :D

xian
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hm its been quite a long time since i last blogged. hahaha shrugs whatever??? oh so this week was quite HAPPENING ABOURRRIT. cool man!

i just rmb umm monday after rhd rehearsal i went to food republic and wisma to meet weiting nat char yunting yen these spastic people and BINGE LIKE MAD!!! :D otast box french toast ROCKS LEHHH!!! :D nevermind i got toastbox at amk hub i any time can go there buy HEEE YOU ALL JEALOUS RIGHT. but then OHWELL i was kinda moody that day so i just attempted to do chinese paper! hahaha shrugs.... pretty productive!

umm i cant rmb anything about tuesday??? shrugs. oooh wednesday. there was like no guides. and then i cant find anyone to study with me! :( but LUCKILY i met my saviours :D elaine lau becca wang and koh yitong! :D :D :D my lovely psls! <3! haha went for lunch at lido then i managed to finish quite a bit of tuition hmwk with elaine at lido! and we talked a lot I WAS HAPPY THAT DAY :D love you elaine lau! :D :D :D

ooh and wednesday i frickin talked to tanweiting on the phone for likerrr 2h 40min?!?!? COOLNESS LAAAAA. eh after eois we must break our record mans. :) haha slept at like, 1.40?!?!? we're the BEST.

thursday i was SUPER SUPER SUPER tired in sch la! x) shrugs i seriously fell aslp during lunch then yumin had to wake me up for extra physics lesson. ahh i dont get physics. im so screwed :( ss i also dont understand. i also suck at differentiation. DIE LA IM JDL. sigh.

and i stayed up until like, 12plus to do my chem file lor! then in the end 408 so rebellious never hand in?!?!? now i like, stayed up for NOTHING?!?!? shrugs......

today's rhd was like SHRUGS. sian. haha last rhd in rgs! hahaha. went out with yen nat weiting! so fun HEEEHEEEE :D i love all of you! tinky joined us later and we ate ben and jerrys. MUACKS LA! but wheres my mudslides :( :( SADNESS.

okay! so tmr got dimsum treat! wheee so cool. treating pingfang zhiying weiting nat char yen tinky sipei to dimsum tmr! cos they so nice so sweet came down to people's park to support me :) LOVE ALL OF YOU! seee ya all tmr :)

haha im listening to s.h.e songs now! their old albums! EMO EMO EMO! hahaha i think emoness ROCKS! haha okay i shall do the english short paragraph thingy now. SHRUGS. byebye!

xian
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today was a pretty slack day in school. but today started out terrible so i wasnt in a really great mood. haha. from last night till now mood kinda not good. hahaha. but WHO CARES. life goes on and we all move on. the earth aint gonna stop rotating cos of one person.

orals today. finally la omgosh. actually i think speaking chinese is quite cool. im so addicted to it! HAHAHA YA RIGHT........ anyway i really shouldnt be blogging. got lotsa hmwk to do. but WHO CARES.

i think emotions are really cool. like, why do we feel this way? why do we feel that way? why do we love? why do we hate? why do we smile? why do we laugh? why do we cry? why do we stare into blank space? why do we have mood swings? how does everything work? so cool la. all related to brain w0rx. hahaha one day if im free i shall research all abourrit.

anyway im crazy over a lot of songs now hahaha all emo lyrics. hahaha. for instance, i like Last Night by P. Diddy ft Keisha Cole. but i only like the part where keisha cole sings! hahahahah x)

why do like poles repel and unlike poles attract? why?? why humans also same, opposites attract? dont get it! if you're opposite, different interest, different aspirations, different perspectives of stuff, how do you have common topics? how?? why?? hahaha food for thought hor.

heaven makes a sport of Man. the more you want something, the more you dont get it. the more you try, the more you fail. what you want is always not there, what you dont want is always there. the more you try to love sth, the more you hate it.the more you try to hate sth, the more you love it. the more you try to forget sth, the more it stays in your brain. the more you try to remember sth, the more you cant rmb it.

why do things happen in a particular way? really wonder. is it all fated? is there rly sth called fate? haha. but i believe everything happens for a particular reason. when you want A so badly but you dont get it, and you're forced to settle for B, actually B may be much better than A. perhaps it suits you more. and when you slowly think back you also realise B actually rocks. who knows? maybe its all fated. maybe its fated when you're unhappy and you talk to your friend and you realise your friend has always been there to support you. maybe its all fated that when ppl say the person you love doesnt love you, and the person you dont love, loves you. then you settle for the person who loves you and try to love him/her back, then you realise you're slowly loving him/her too, and in fact, isnt it better to find someone to loves you more than you love him/her? maybe its all fated that you're supposed to suck at this particular subject so that you'll work really hard and then ace this subject, then realise you have a passion for this subject and then develop in this particular field. maybe its all fated that you're not as perfect as you wanted yourself to be, so that people befriend you because of sth special and unique they find in you.

perhaps everything is all fated. maybe sth called fate really exists. and once again im gonna say i believe things happen for a particular reason. but we're always oblivious to it.

and sometimes we like to do things, knowing that they're wrong. like, i know its wrong to blog now, but im still doing it anyway. like, some ppl know its bad to litter on the floor and they'll be fined, but they do it anyway. like, some ppl know they shouldnt love this particular person cos of whatever reasons, but they allow themselves to just keep loving him/her. like, when you've got a sore throat, you know its bad to eat chocolate, but you still eat it anyway. the human brain is so special. i thought we would always hold ourselves back from doing what we deem as wrong. but in fact, we dont. there are times we just let ourselves commit mistakes just like that.

thats because we always deceive ourselves. im blogging now cos im telling myself i can stay up late tonight and do hmwk. but actually im too tired to stay up late tonight. ppl litter knowing its bad cos they tell themselves nobody will see them and they wont get caught. but there are passers by who see them, just that they dont tell them that they saw. ppl love someone they know they shouldnt love, because they got this tiny glimmer of hope that the person will like them back. when truth is, the person may be alrdy attached. when ppl eat chocolate when they have sore throat, its because they tell thmselves they can drink a lot of water later to neutralise it. but in the end they just keep eating chocolates and only drink a bit of water, thinking their condition wont worsen.

so cool. our brain is so complex and complicated. hahahaha. what a philosophical entry today.

xian
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HELLO. im in a pretty good mood today. hahah dunno why. aybe cos i know week3 is just orals and mine's most probably on first day so i'll get it over and done with, not like chem, both parts all last day last lesson. CSI Cant Stand It la....

im listening to marriage d'armour now! on youtube! hahaha. LOVE THIS SONG LOR. it was and still IS a song i want to play on the piano. i remember a few years back when i was still learning piano i wanted to learn how to play this song cos it sounds so nice (AND SO EMO!) haha maybe in the dec hols i shall try to learn how to play it! hahaha. some ppl say piano is such a romantic instrument. i dont think so! maybe its cos i learnt it before. haha i think guitar, CLASSICAL guitar is most romantic OKAY. haha!

today i did work leh omgosh. SURPRISINGLY LA. maybe its cos i know i wasted away the whole of saturday thats why. hahaha i finished english homework. which is quite a huge burden off my shoulders? the next huge burden is like, READING HISTORY NOTES!!! and SS RESEARCH THANK YOU V MUCHLY. aaah shrugs..... got so much hmwk. i really want orals to be over! hao xian zai wo yao jiang hua yu le. NI MEN YE YAO GEN WO YI QI JIANG HUA YU YIN WEI JIANG HUA YU COOL. JIANG HUA YU SHI FU QI, BIE SHI QU!!! whatever!

by the way i came up with a rough plan for september hols already! hahaha so cool! although only one week la... shrugs. but its my motivation! :D aahhh i want all our exams to be over soon ):

my meimei bought toblerone for me. so nice right! but she bought timeout, hershey's and this bigbigbigbigbigBIGGGGGG dark chocolate for herself. hahah! x) BUT BUT BUT NEVERTHELESS at least she bought sth for me! she got think abourr me, i was on her mind. AWW SO SWEEEEEET. ahahaha! :) so next time if i buy sth for you, you shld betouched cos i thought of you! :) LOL okay whatever la.

i shall tryyyyyy to read history notes. looks like tonight im gonna slp quite late. then again, i slept at like, 11.30 on friday and woke up at 10.30 on saturday. SO COOL OKAY. 11hours of slp OMGOSH! once in a hotpink moon! cool man, love myself. :D and on saturday i slept at 12am! and woke up today at 9am! 9hours of sleep! not bad also! AHH I LOVE WEEKENDS, TIME TO SLEEEEEEEP :) umm but.... weekdays are like, DOTDOT. hahaha whateverrrrr.

alright alright. HISTORY HISTORY. byebyebyebye.

xian
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ah this week is finally over. it toally sucked la. hahaha. whateverrrrr.

kinda sian, i got terrible flu now. have been having headache and blocked nose for 3 days already. ahhh so sick. shrugs.

ooh. so week 3 is like, chi orals suo yi wo men yao jiang hua yu. hahaha. ahhh got a lot of homework. super sian super stressed!

hmm tmr going to sch for handbells and guitar concert. so cool neh. must buy flowers for the winners :) hahaha.

im sooo tired today. haha feel like sleeping now! hmm anyway i feel like giong shopping lor ): i miss shopping la. maybe i shall go shoping with weiting tmr before the concert! ahh so cool. haha shall talk to her late bourrit. :)

ok i think i should go and tidy my table or sth? and meanwhile maybe do english hmwk? and wait for tanweiting to come online hahaha. shrugs.

my flu sucks! ):

xian
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good morning! hahaha early in the morning. ahh cant believe it! week1 is like, OVER! 9 more weeks to go! rg sec fours gogogo! hahaha the rhyming sucks. but whatever!

this week has been so draining. slept at like, 3am on friday doing chem pt. which was seriously completed during hols but i jus had to be affected and influenced by what my friends say and make changes to my pt. and i still know i'll fail. what a loser!

chem spa was like, -rolls eyes- i almost fell asleep la. shrugs? hahaha. hopefully i can pass the first part, or someone's gonna screw me big time and gimme prep talk. that big chiobu. really.

oh and fashion show's finally over. like phew. thsnks to all who came down to support! weiting yunting char nat pingfang sipei zhiying! love all of you hahaha :) felt so loved. thanks to weiting my thwarted who have been supporting me throughout the whole thing, telling me maybe its not as bad as i think it is. :) XIEXIE NI! and to nat who thinks its special. i love all of you and thanks so much for all of your encouragement. :) :)

so like, youth day for rg sec fours = mug bio and do chem spa part 2. SO COOOL! :D :D :D im so totally in love with bio and chem, so much that i wanna spend my hols doing these 2 subjects leh!!! :D lovelove!

ahh and i got my stupid moodboard to do. SIANNNNN. im like, living from week to week. oh shrugs. count down 10weeks! :) we all can do it i guess.

haha today during tuition they gave some crashcourse pamphlet. its like during sept hols. 5days. which is like, the whole of hols. then i was stupidly thinking if i shld go! (LIKE OMGOSH SO NERD BOURRIT?!?!?! BUT YAH IM A NERD... IF YOU DIDNT KNOW... 8)) and then i realised HEYHEYHEY MAKE SOME NOISE. by september, OUR EOYS OVER ALREADY LAAAAA!!!! YEAHHH!!! like omgosh, isnt this so exciting and exhilarating and encouraging! :D i seriously cant wait for all our exams to be over :) then can like, PLAY AND SLACK AND SHOP AND WHATEVER LIKE CRAZYYYY :D i was thinking HOW SHOULD I SPEND MY SEPT HOLS? hahah! monday go out with this person, tuesday go out with that person! everyday go out with different ppl and shop! till i drop! and watch movies! and eat! like omgosh! haha i want sleepover also! omgosh so cool AHHHHH THE THOUGHT OF IT MAKES ME HAPPY. cos septempber seems so near (YET SO FAR, COS LIKE, 9MORE WEEKS......) hahahah! lol term just started and im wanting it to end. HAHAHAHA. shrugs.

okay i shall go plan how i shld spend my time wisely tmr :) SO COOL LA, mug bio like totally. oh and did i mention, my sis and i damn cheap thrill, saturday night both of us painted our nails! hahahha x) quite shrugs but whatever! i like my nails! hahaha so loser.

alright. BYE EVERYONE. hopefully we're almost getting used to school life already. the hecticness and all. the crazyness of this term is gonna be like, someone from woodbridge? ok whatever bad analogy! hahaha... TO ALL SEC FOURS. THIS IS THE TIME TO SLOG YOUR GUTS OUT. (AS MUCH AS WE HATE IT....) lol i say so much, sound like i will mug damn hard like that. in the end slack like crazy. SHRUGS loser xian. loser loser loser!

xian
:'(

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HELLO, HELLO. well guess what. school's totally starting. ok i know i said that in my previous entry but still?!?! its like kinda weird. throughout the whole hols, its not like i mugged a lot, its not like a slept a lot (cos i slept later than usual). i wonder what i've been doing. i guess i just wasted time like, unknowingly. or perhaps, knowingly. haha. time just seems to pass so fast during the hols, its like, you blink an eye, wow its gone. like, it seems just ytd tt it was last day of term2. ohwell!

maybe time will pass fast in sch too? haha hopefully. its like, you blink an eye again, WOW monday is over. blink your eye again, tuesday is over. blink your eye a few more times, week1 is over! hahaha. SO FUNNY RIGHT!

alright whad-evvverr! haha. so term3 is here, every week got test/pt to hand in, its gonna be crazy, but its okay our sufferings end earlier than many other ppl out there, so i guess thats one thing we can be happy about. oh and recently i just realised o levels is like, tested on like sec3 AND sec4 stuff? so im like WOW actually im quite lucky. so it goes like this. during the june hols, the o level students are mugging, while we stay at home, do pt, mug a bit. okay i think its about the same la, just tt they gotta mug a whole lot more than us.

so very soon, we're gonna have eoys. very soon, we're gonna have options. very soon, we're gonna leave rg. its quite fast! you blink your eye for (dunno how many times) and four years in rg gonna be over. good or bad thing? errrr...... -shrugs-

so my secondary school chapter is gonna end. i've finished 3 and a half years out of 4, which means 87.5%. so the remaining 100% - 87.5% is left for me to write finish. to have a good ending or a bad ending, its really up to........ who? i wonder. you're gonna say its up to me. but my life aint all about myself. get what im trying to say? haha.

whatever it is, i have no mood to type anymore because someone has just spoled my day, a few minutes ago. what a perfect timing. she must have some psychic powers, know JUST when to make me unhappy yeah? shrugs :>

alright, im gonna do a bit of chem report, and im gonna try to sleep by 12 tonight. just wanna say, good luck to every single sec four out there. tmr you gotta wake up early, wear you ugly/maybe not so ugly sch uniform, you gotta carry that heavy/maybe not so heavy bag to sch, you gotta pay attention during your boring/maye not so boring lessons, you gotta maybe take a test, you gotta maybe submit an important assignment, you gotta maybe attend your hatest lesson, you gotta eat disgusting/maybe not so disgusting canteen food. whatever it is, good luck everyone. smile. sleep early tonight, because tmr you've gotta wake up reaaaaaally early compared to the past month, and ohwell, gear yourself up for the new term, full of stress, challenge, exams, tests, mugging, struggling, late nights, eye rings, eye bags, outbreaks, books, powerpoint slides, homework. just accept it. you're a student. right now, just slog your guts out. and pray hard that you'll make your mark in the future. good luck.<3

xian
:'(

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-gasps- ATOTO. sch is reopning in just a mere few days. OHGOSH. the thought of it makes me sick.

i think like, the only thing i look forward to going to sch next week is like, FRIENDS? uh, cos really, other than these people, the school's got nothing that i really look forward to. errrr i look forward to all our tests. cos i want them to be over so tt i can slack! yay! HAHAHAHAHA.

so week1 is gonna be total madness, cos there's math test, chem spa, and chem pt due on friday. oh and the brest thing, seriously, is that until now we still dont know when our chem spa and math test is. SO COOLIO LA :) rocks! hahahaha. its like, they're playing game with us. want us to guess when our exam is. I CAN TOTALLY GUESS LA! cos im like, TOTALLY PSYCHIC LEH! :D -smiles widely-

well, in addition to all these, bio test is the following week, week 2. COOOLNESS :) and i haven't started mugging yet la. gosh im quite screwed ): i havent started mugging for chem spa either ):

haha shrugs oh gosh i just realised needa do chinese file also. SHRUGS? hahaha. and my moodboard is undone. oh frug it! :( why did i slack so much! shrugs!

i shall like, ATTEMPT to do my chinese file now. goodbye cruel world!

xian
:'(

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Thursday, June 14
9.15pm

OMGOSH IM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG WE HEARD AT ST NICKS CAMPFIRE YESTERDAY!!! its called Cupid's Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes! EEEEAHHH!

its so sweet and cute! HAHA :D :D oh no what happened to my slow and sweet songs on classical guitar. lowyunting you're influencing me to like this kinda song! all the rock rock one! hahaha.

okay im feeling damn sleepy and tired now, probably cos i just had lunch. shrugs la everytime after lunch i feel so tired and sleepy! haha whatever, anything.

I WANT NEW NICE SONGS! yesterday at ljs with laine and jo and we heard this nice song but we all dunno the song title ): AHHH SO SAD.

byebyeee.

xian
:l

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Thursday, June 14
9.15pm

HEY HO MERRY OH. hahaha. so far life's been almost total coolness. well these were my happening events!

1. celebration of tinky's bday!
hahaha watched ocean thirteen with yunting weiting charlene! hahaha IT ROCKS LA OMGOSH IT ROCKS I LOVE IT!!!! :D :D i never even heard before ocean eleven and twelve la. xD i was stupid enough to think that there were ocean one all the way to thirteen! lol im such a looooser abourrrit. heee.

2. psb chalet!
yup yup! haha it was soo fun la! :D :D we ate dinner, watched so you think you can dance and css and we cheered sooo loudly! hahaha although jiajun couldnt hear us but whatever! :D hahah we were all damn spastic and crazy and funnyyyyy :D hahaha ooh weiting and i love our thriller dance :D

3. class outing! (which is todayyyy!)
YESSSS! um hmm we watched men in white! ROCKS LA!!!! i dunno why so many of them dont like! whatever! anything! hahahah x) i cried at the last part cos the guy and the girl ghosts are supposed to be together la okay. OKAY?!?!?! but in the end the girl ghost got reincarnated. SHRUGS where got ghosts reincarnate one!!! I CANT STAND IT!!! whyyy!!! why must separate the both of them. SHRUGS. i was so sad when she was reincarnated. :( haha so emotional abourrit? HAHAHA. whatever, anything.


tomorrow the highlight is st nicks campfire! im anticipating it! :D wheeeee so happy :) haha i got nothing to do this weekend! okay maybe except stay at home and umm do tuition hmwk? hahaha shrugs.

alright byebye im off to call tanweiting now. HEEEEE.

xian
:)

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Friday, June 8
8.15pm

today started off with me smsing yunting HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVEEEEEEEEEE at 12am! :) I LOVE YOU LOWYUNTING! A LOT A LOT A LOT. :D :D :D :D words cant express how much i loooooove you babe! :D :D SEE YA ON SUNDAY<3!

hahahah had fever today. so basically, after i woke up, the day started off terrible! but i shant elaborate! if you wanna know you can ask me. (but i doubt you'll wanna know anyway so whatever!)

hmm i was totally in nooooo mood to do any work. so i just slacked around, watched tv, sleep, eat? YEAHH. but im supposed to finish chem worksheet today. shall push it back to tmr >< IM SUCH A PROCRASTINATOR. but aiya shrugs la.

looking forward to sunday! haha going out with the bitch, pig, witch, yattan and neyney to watch shrek. i think i sound like im going out with a bunch of weird creatures. LOL shrugger shrug.

BYE WINNERS, im boreddddddd.

xian
:)

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Sunday, June 3
11.45pm

HELLO HELLO. today im happy lor! cos math and chem tuition was fun. eeeah! :) i like differentiation! but i dontlike first principles. so loser! after math i met jolene earlier haha we walked around and then we ate dessert at the food court! yupiiex then we ate yami youghurt during break. met my dad for dinner after tuition. then i drank bubble tea. cool man today i had soo many sweet stuff! hahahha

my dad just bought new phone! im a bit jealous! but then again, i dont wanna change phone cos i love mine. cos its pink! im never gonna change my phone until i see a nicer PINK phone! eeeeah! hahaha.

let me give all of you a song, a very inspiring song! :)

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be (you were meant to be)
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself (love yourself)
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same (stay the same)
'Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

No, there's nothing 'bout you I would change . . .


ahh this song is so inspiring right! or at least, it is to me la! :) its our psb board song :)

YES this song is making me optimistic. YOU WERE MEANT TO BE THE WAY YOU ARE EXACTLY! so everything happens for a reason, therefore DONT YOU EVER SAY YOU DONT LIKE THE WAY YOU ARE! because WHEN YOU LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF, YOU'RE BETTER OFF BY FAR! :)

omg i cant believe this song has got such a great impact on me and my mood. i guess partly cos its a psb board song and i <3333333333 psb :D

hence i shall attempt to be optimistic :) WHOOHOO. and smile :) so all you emo ppl out there, SMILE! hahaha :) or go and eat la, cos eating will make you happy, for duno whatever reason! lol.

hopefully my optimism can last for long LOL. i scared later sch reopen i get unhappy again. OH SHRUGS WHO CARES. the present is the most impt! be happy! :)

im bored now i dunno what to do. just dont feel like sleeping. haha shrugs. whatever. bye!

xian
:)

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Friday, June 1
11.30pm

shrugs actually today didnt wanna touch the computer one. but i think if i dont blog today i will lose my nice memories! and therefore here it goes!

so today i woke up at 8.40am actually, but i went back to sleep. haha shrugs. um hmmm. then i woke up at 11am and i was OH SHIT! cos supposed to meet yunting at 12.30! which means i needa leave house at about 11.50!

but ohwell! met the winner at taka! haha ate pop doh! wheehoo! so basically today was a greaaaaat spree mans x) haha BOTH of us are happy :D everytime go in sch u always never buy stuff today at least got some takeaways! (LOL sounds like packet lunch, but whatever la you get what i mean.) hahaha yay! anyway end of hols must go out one more time! DATE OKAY LOWYUNTING :)

oh shit theres this mosquito flying arnd in my room now. shrugs must be the same one which bit my frickin thigh. loser! lesbian la stupid mosquito.

anyway today yunting and i are happy girls! wheee! :D <3 YOU, ARE YOU SEEING THIS! x)


tomorrow going to my sis summer sch concert! yay so happy! okay i must chiong all my tuition hmwk cos sunday got tuition aaahhhhh im soo dead.

bye!

xian
:)

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Wednesday, May 30
11.30pm

HELLO! aiyaaa gpa was crap! but im kinda happy that they rounded up? and now my chem is 2.0? like, at least got pass?!?!? eeeeah......

campfire was, BEST LA omgosh. TRADITIONAL CAMPFIRE OKAY, DONT PRAY PRAY. shrugs...... like dotdot la. hahahah im like so appalled and shocked okay. atoto. hopefully the st nicks one will be better! :D

atoto la, im just looking forward to friday now :D -stares at yunting :D- oooh and i wanna paint my nails tmr :D eeeeah! hahha this is a short entry. anyway! i wrote down all my resolutions for holidays already! hahaha in my wonderful notebook. shrugger shrug.

im gonna slp soon, BYE!

xian
:)

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Saturday, May 26
9.30pm

today is the start of holidays. and so many rg girls had to come all the way back to school for open house. what a great start to the holidays!

so anyway, today i reached school at 730am. NORMAL TIME. formal u. i LOVE formal u (cos i feel so good and tall in it and i love the court shoes sound when i walk) but the court shoes really make my leg so pain okayrrrr. but okok nvm its alright.

okay yea so today i managed to only talk about psb booth la. i spoke the truth okay! thats psb rocks(: hahaha but the parents not very interested leh, dotdot...... im not eloquent enough la, shrugs.

sad, today nobody asked me about how life in rgs is. i cannot talk about how rgs is soooooo.... relaxed, and stress-free :) HAHAHA. ya, so sad.

today is my pms day. very obvious is it? jia said she could tell lor. hahah oops. sorry, when im unhapy i dont really bother to cover it up. im not like some ppl got dman good anger management. im pissed, im irritated, im unhappy, im upset, accept it. not happy, go away. YEA. sorry for being a bitch.

today is my really BAD DAY, and when char asked me why i was like, no, i cannot start talking about it. if not i will just keep going on and on and get dman agitated. so YES im gonna try to shut the frick up. happy? yea can tell all of you damn happy. im so glad that you're happy. smile, you're on candid camera.

whatever. byebye.

xian
:'(

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Thursday, May 24
7.40pm

im supposed to finished the eng essay corrections AND rs reflections today! but errrr havent started on anything. duh? -rolls eyes-

today was a bit the shrugs. anyway chinese was quite nice we watched a world without thieves in the ks chee. it was like daaaaamn dark it was as though we were in cinema. then after the show i just felt like slping la. but shrugs there was cle so nt that bad la, at least not chem. HAHAHAHA, HAHA.

errrr, i wanted to go straight home after sch but cos of frickin rs i had to frickin stay back in sch. so like wtf everybody go home i was frickin in sch doing nothing. rolls eyes la seriously.

oh anyway rewind rewind. today's ss lesson was kinda SLACKKKK?!?!? shrugs i thought he wouldnt come. in the end he came!!! ): ok la but at least it was quite fun. but sorry i was just daaaaamn tired and sleepy i kept dozing off. feel kinda guilty? yea. somemore he kept looking at my direction. even olly says so. shrugs.

okay after sch laine and i went waffle town to eat. like wth i totally forgot that i havent eaten lunch until we went waffletown?!?!?!? like omg la. wtf is wrong with me. this never ever happened to me before?!?! ya im a loser, sucker, idiot, whatever you say. okay? happy? -rolls eyes again- anyway eating makes me happy so i was quite happy after i finished eating.

went home, finished my zuowen. im so frickin sian. of life. shrugs?? seriously dont feel like going to sch for open house on saturday. cos i dont wanna cheat the feelings of those innocent young pri6 kids. i dont want them to be illusioned by all our 'good examples'. today when mr ganesh asked if any of us regretted coming to rgs, sheena and i raised our hands. HAHAHA. so you're gonna say i made my own decision to come here and i shld blame myself for putting rgs for my first choice? guess what, i absolutely agree with you, but errrrrr. my dad told me to come to rg. yea, not my choice. ya, so frickin shut up.

ooh i finally remembered why im even living on this earth. to grow up and find out what job i'll have next time! hahahaha errrr but looking at my results now i think my job wont be very amazing or wonderful la. so anyway, as i was telling some of them in the toilet today, i definitely wont commit suicide, cos that means all my slogging in rgs will be wasted. but then, if i were to die now, i wont mind. really. haha nope, not suicidal actually. so dont needa worry, if you even bother to worry, that is.

errrr so basically tmr's last day of LESSONS, not school. cos we still have a lot of work to do, and we still have to come back to schoo. so. yeah. whatever. -rolls eyes until eyes get stuck at the back of my brain-

i want to frickin sleep without all the work i've got to do at the back of my mind, but i know thats frickin impossible. errrrr. shrugs. goodbye,the frugged up world.

xian
:'(

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Friday, May 18
11.55pm

HEY. errrr shrugs. hahahah. this week was the WORSTTTT week i ever had. EEEEAH.

the main highlight (WOW SOUNDS SO INTERESTING AND COOL LA) of this week is OF COURSE getting back our mya papers!!??! i mean like DUH. students live for what? to study until tire yourself out lor! you mean you ding nor?!?!??! LOSER. seriously, LOSER. shrugs....

YES. i did very terribly. like, F it. put in effort also no use one la. to score well, must be DAMN SMART. have TALENT. sharrup about all the 99% hardwork + 1% talent. cos its FAKE. and if its real, then i guess i dont even have 1% talent :) yoyo make some noise i only came to rgs through LUCK. yes winner lady luck the big chiobu was on my side.

okay i actually typed a whole load of emo crap. but i dont feel like being emo today so forget it.

i cant believe i survived today! :D YAYYYYYYYY. hahahah there was chem and bio which were SHER-RUGS. hahahah and IO WAS ROCKING SUCCESS! :D hahahah PEER SUPPORT BOARD INTERNAL OUTREACH 2007 ROCKS ABOURRRIT! :) I LOVE PSB<33333333333 YOU KNOW?!?!?! :D

having terrible headaches every night la. shrugs!!! very sian la next tuesday got bio spa and its INDIV omgosh SHRUGS LA. im so scared okay. its the first thumb im so scared for a frickin spa :( SHRUGS!

okay i dont feel like blogging already. cya!

xian
:(

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Saturday, May 12
11.35pm

ORA WAS LIKE.............. okay :) LOL. this yr was kinda JDL cos our sch is SO BIG LA.... i LOST all my friends la, TOTALLY CANNOT find them :) hahahhaha!

anyway! psb booth sandwich ROCKS LAAAAAA omgosh! hahaha :D and i love dear CAFEIGHT :) <3! although the auntie came like really really late, with our unity and determination we managed to finish selling all the drinks :) FOUR EIGHT ROCKS OKAYYYY! next yr MUST MUST had 408 07 booth :) WHEEEEEEEEE!

oh and after ora yen char weiting and i went BORDERS! to READ BOOKS! haha no la actually not read. just look thru? SHRUGS. we're trying to make weiting more intellectual! LOL.

and YAYYY CHARLENE SOH I LOVE YOU!!! are you reading this loser?!?!? im so glad we've got the same taste for books lor! (i almost typed book taste, which is kinda JDL but ohwell shrugs!) hahah you better REMIND REMIND me to go and buy that book together okay! :D

ooh and did i mention char and i totally crash the 404 booth by drawing our own CHIO CHIO CHIO drawings and selling them for 10cents, 20cents, 1dollar. SO CHEAP LA. (yet nobody bought in the end, SO SAD! cry already la!) haha both of us were being damn spastic. char if you're seeing this, just wanna say BIG ThANK YOU to you for cheering me up cos i was seriously feeling super sian and bored i was on the verge of crying?!?!? shrugs?!?!? hahahah you make me laugh so much! and you rock at using the sweeper to sweep! xD!

tomorrow's homework day! cos monday got frickin lessons :/ so sad! shrugs! hahaha. BYE WINNERS.

xian
:)

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Thursday, May 10
8.30pm

shrugs so myas are finally over! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! OHHHHH MYYYYYYY GOSHHHHHH YESSSSSS OVERRRRR ALREADYYYYYYY ABOURRRRITTTTTTTTTTTTT! hahaha i mean, they were over on wed but its like shrugs i no time to talk abourrit ytd.

i think i screwed up a lot of papers?!?! shrugs la. work so hard also no use. LOSER. (yea im referring to MIIIIEEEEXXXXX not you.)

shrugs today had physics which was JDL cos i seriously dunno how to connect wires abourrit. yunting the airhead and i screw up so many circuits?!?!? shrugs. oh chem was like, YAY!!!!!! omgosh!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D omgosh the fa rocked! aaaahhhhhhhh! -sings happy tree friends theme song!-

okay no comments.

CAFEIGHT BANNER DAMN CHIO DAMN CHIO I LOVE IT! YAY! SO GLAM LA OMGOSH. EVERYBODY MUST BUY OUR BUBBLE TEA AND BROWNIES FROM FOUREIGHT BOOTH! COME COME COME! hahahha EHHH AND DONT FORGET SANDWICHES FORM PSB BOOTH :D

ok i just realised must go sch at 730 for the winner walkajogathon bourrit..... song jian. must wake up early again.

k tmr got no lessons SO COOL damn slack. YAY! (but seriously i prefer to just stay at home and slp but ok nvm.)

shrugs june hols just remind me of chem pt. i really cant stand the **** ****. they are SO LOSER. AAAARGH.

BYE winners.

xian
:l

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Friday, May 4
11.25pm

"people became more educated and had greater awareness" (that their life sucks) -quote from my history notes!

alright, whats left is history chi and math, all my fav subjects so im already behaving like myas are over. but NO cannot okay CANNOT. must be a mugger nerd because it is a BAD to have enough sleep, BAD to watch tv. yea SO BAD. dont you feel guilty when you slp early and wake up late cos you feel that you didnt do anything?

ohwell, yunting was telling me today, from some song, it goes "HATE IS A STRONG WORD BUT I REALLY REALLY DONT LIKE YOU" haha i think "really really dont like you" is an understatement. but really really really (to the power of infinity) dont like THE school. take note uh, i didnt say its MY school. i didnt say what school it is. (lol disclaimer)

and the rj talk made me feel so shrugs about next yr cos i know, and YOU know its not gonna get any better. its like, as time passes, your life becomes worse. can imagine the graph? oh but thats unless umm you frickin marry some frickin rich guy and become taitai and enjoy everyday la. thats different.
like shrugs. anyway! i love all emo songs now. so if you are some emo person and has a lot of emo songs PLEASE SEND ME. i like WELCOME TO MY LIFE by simple plan! like this song is super long thumb ago but my favourite line is "you may think im happy but im not gonna be okay" LIKE EEEEEEAHHHHH. and omgosh i love BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS! yay! my dreams to be psychiatrist is broken! READ BETWEEN THE LINES, WHATS F-ED UP AND EVERYTHING'S ALRIGHT.

alrightttt. goodbye world. and i still hate you. and once again, hate is a strong word but i really really dont like you. byebye!

xian
:(

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Friday, April 27
7.30pm

okay! now im gonna do the thingy that wengkeong<3 tagged me to do, wheehooo!

“This is what you are supposed to do - cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.” 1. I lived without my mp4 player for 5months already.

2. No matter how old and torn and tattered the sofa in the PSB room is, i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE sleeping on it.

3. I miss teletubbies A LOT.

4. I have a few teletubbies VCD from like, pri sch times!

5. I like to eat cereals for supper instead of breakfast.

6. I like ironing clothes!

I tag: jasmine, jolene, nattay, yunting, peiting, char


okay. so this week is finally over. its ONE of the worst weeks i ever had. almsot everything about this week was JDL thank you very much.

new seating arrangement is out, i'll totally miss gloop twee! :( im sitting right in front now, and i must must come up with new strategy to stay awake in class la. frug it!

and i just wanna say BIG THANKS to the chiobu for making me feel frickin STUPID. you make me feel so good la. LOVE YOU.

-rolls eyes until eyes get stuck at the back of my brain-

xian
:'(

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Sunday, April 22
10.01pm

wow i realise i usually blog during weekends. okay like DUH. thats the only time when i dont feel so stressed as compared to weekends. oh but today is different. tmr got 5 items! and weiting told me that the criteria frickin increased! atoto mans. shrugs la.

okay. now i've got this theory. now rgs is making us so frickin stressed and like so screwed up. we use up lots of brain cells. and brain cells frickin DONT regenerate. so when we grow up, we become damn stupid with little brain cells left. yeah. so i think right, basically those rgs girls who become successful ppl when they grow up is because: 1. they were damn slack when they were students or 2. they have like, a lot a lot a lot of brain cells, and even though they use up a lot when they were students, they still got a lot left when they grow up.

i hope every smile and every laughter can come deep from the heart; when there's a smile on my face, there's a smile on my heart; when i laugh, my heart laughs.

i hope every smile and every laughter can be real, and not a facade, nor a mask.

i hope every smile and every laughter is genuine.



sorry for being so emotional. i dont know if its just me, but i realised so many sec fours are becoming stressed nowadays. yes you can say 'whatever lor, i got this this this this [examples of the million gazillion committments you have], so im more stressed than you. so can you please stop complaining.' but can all of you frickin realise that everyone has different limits. students are like rubber bands. some of us can be stretched to 5cm, some 10cm. those students who kill themselves cos of stress = the rubber band break alrdy.

you can tell me the sch is preparing us for the competitive and stressful society. but look, since its gonna be so stressful next time, can let us enjoy our childhood? if not childhood, teenagehood? or whatever you frickin call it? let us enjoy life a bit first la. start the stress so early, its like 60-70% of our lives are spent stressing and working. no life. no frickin life.

whatever la. im still damn emo im so sorry. maybe i will become happier when the hols come. maybe? or maybe not. HAHA. cos hols = sch doesnt want us to relax = homework + activities = must stay at home do work / must go sch for whatever stupid things = still same as sch days / even worse than sch days = students enjoy no hol = students stressed and unhappy. AGAIN. = FREAK YOU, SCREWED UP WORLD.

xian
:'(

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Sunday, April 15
9.45pm

close your eyes, picture what you'll be in the future. some of us aspire to be doctors, lawyers, in the future. but that day i was watching this show, and one of the characters said, who actually grows up to be who they wished they could be when they were young? that means, for eg now there are like, 80% of teenagers who wanna be doctors, but not all 80% will become. right? right.

when i think of my future, i feel like crying. like HELLO ABOURRIT. i got frickin no aim, no ambition, no goal. i dunno what i wanna be when i grow up. shrugs. i wanted to be psychologist. but looking at my sciences and how im frickin failing them, no way. you can tell me to work hard, sure can one. but PUH-LEASE. you KNOW that for sec sch sciences, foundation is impt. and in case you didnt know abourrit, my foundation frickin sucks cos during lower sec i already sucked at sciences. im not like some of you who feels damn sad when you get 3.2 or 3.6.

work so hard in rg for 4 yrs, gonna work hard in rj for 2 yrs, with deprived slp, deprived childhood, deprived time spent with family, deprived social life, etc, and then what if you grow up to be someone who is like, not as ideal as you wished you could be? how? all your effort all byebye abourrit. like wth? its really so AAARGH. you're clever, you're pro. but look around you. there are ppl more pro than you. why must you be the doctor/lawyer/whatever?

can you imagine? all your time and effort and everything spent in studying mugging tuitioning and everything is all BYEBYE, cos your 100% doesnt even reach others' 40%? isnt it damn scary? that you've worked hard but you still dont get what you wanted? its not a short term i-work-hard-for-3months thing. its a long term i-work-hard-since-im-young-cos i've-got-a-clear-goal thing.

shrugs la. dunno why im so frickin emo now okayrr? and im just so stressed by rs. frug it mans.

whatever it is, when i think about my future i cant help but to cry cos it just seems so bleak. i dunno why im working so hard. or am i even working hard? maybe everyone thinks im a slakcer who totally doesnt work hard for anything in life. whatever. its just that my 80% is not even your 10%. im so so sorry.

goodbye this screwed up world. frug you.

xian
:'(

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Monday, April 9
8.30pm

okayrrr im gonna make this fast cos pingfang said my eyes swollen today so i must slp early! atoto abourrit!

yupiiex math was SUPER SHRUGGER, like just shrug it off, i miss jteo A LOT. shrugs! umm english was like shrugs, it was so sian la shrugs! like who cares about FA okayrr! hahahah! even ink doesnt care abourrit!

atoto physics was damn boring also, ink and i were totally stoning, and ss was the BREAST because he didnt come! and i slept for half an hour! and it was a good sleep because i could stay awake during philo! :D today is my THIRD philo lesson that i manage to stay awake throughout, in my whole upper sec life :) SHRUGS :) pingfang arent you proud of me abourrit? shrugs? hahaha

gm was rocks! i sat with psls :) i realise that i should treasure every single gm from now on, because there arent many more gms to go.our terms are ending already, soon it will be farewell, so sad okayrr! :( i love psb a lot <3 eeeeahr!

after gm pingfang zhengning sherrie char nat and i went to far east to get bubble tea and chikee(or howeverr you spell rrit?) hahahah we were thinking of spastic names to give to the chickee person when we order. i had a list: dior, lollipop, motorola, nokia, sony ericsson, chanel, zara, mango, loser, raffles, guess, motorola. hahahha guess which name i used in the end! hahahah its so funny la! only char and i were there! the lady was like, can i have your name please? i was like, 'Mango.' then i turn back to laugh like super madly with char LOL!!!! so funny la! when i said my name was mango the lady didnt even ave any change in her expression! i think she used to it already! hahaah! then later when my food was ready she was like, 'Mango?' LOL then i was trying to control my laughter while i went up to take my food! after i took it i BURST OUT INTO LAUGHTER with char la OMGOSH damn funny abourrrit!!! AAAAARGHHHHH!!!!! SO SPASTIC! i wanna do that again! so fun so fun!!! :D :D :D

hahahah after that pingfang and i took mrt home and we thought of crazy stuff to do on last day of school. SO COOL ABOURRIT LA :D

whoohoooo! and i really cant believe aa is like, this friday. like, YO, MAKE SOME NOISE. RAFFLES GIRL GUIDES 010203 ANNUAL ASSEMBLY 2007. FRIDAY 13TH APRIL! like, -gasps- ATOTO ABOURRRIT!!!! in just the blink of an eye, aa will be over and.... shrugs. my very last aa. hahaha shrugs?

okay i must go do bio journal now cos i think its due this week abourrit. shrugs abourrit! i keep thinking about the number of aa presents i have to make, and the number of aa letters i have to write. hahahaha A LOT ABOURRRIT! atoto!

byebye abourrrit!

xian
:)

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Saturday, April 7
10.59pm

im so happy today! wheeeehooooo! hahaha so today started off well cos GOOD BREAKFAST GREAT MORNING! hahaha yupyup we had breakfast at macs before psl session. haha blowing balloons at the bus stop is so spastic but who cares!

psl session was sooo fun! haha 108 ROCKS la :) the scavenger hunt was super funny hahaha i think my sec ones are REALLY CUTE whooohoo! :D :D i had to leave for likerrr submission of ss pt so its like shrugs i didnt finish watching the movie abourrit?

talked to shruggers like adeline pingfang qiuping jin ning tiddy yumin. shrugs! and i talked to annie joyce and jiali at the pavillion. hahah super funny! annie is gonna act as a ________ (GUESS!!) during om! :D :D im just super excited abourrit :D

so special projects were having their meeting in the canteen, and yityng zeslene and i were at the other side, being shrugger. yityng was chionging ss pt, zeslene was being super duper shrugger mugger cos she was frickin doing math worksheet abourrit?!?!?! SHRUGS!!!! i was just being a LIUSER and drawing hourglass figures but i failed terribly abourrit. shrugs! hahaha

so cool, then spsls went to subway for our io meeting! i hope io is gonna be fun abourrit? its really last minute but YO MAKE SOME NOISE, WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT. BE THE LOVE<3! :D :D this is the second event im involved in throughout my whole term as spsl so its like shrugs abourrrit? i hope it will rock! atoto!

meeting was cool abourrrit, and really fun! :D I LOVE SPSLSSSSSS ABOURRRRRIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT <33333333333333333333333333333333333333 WHHOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO WORDS CANT EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU BUNCH ABOURRRRRRITTTTTT!!!!! hahahahah! and i was being a shrugger singing el nin yo! like shrugs? im listening to rrit now!!! whooohooo! :D :D

okayrr after meeting i went to borders to wait for my mum then i bought 2 books! wheeeeee!! IM SO HAPPY CAN. im like excited to read them abourrit! :D :D :D then mum and i went shopping abourrrit! didnt buy anything w0rx, was kinda pissed cos i really really likeeeeeee this top and this skirt at mng but all too big for me abourrit! somethumbs(times) just wanna slap myself abourrit? shrugs!

but its all good, cos at least both of us bought a hair clip each. LOL. shrugs!!! the only reason why im still in a good mood despite of the fact that i didnt buy anything is cos I BOUGHT BOOKS OKAYRRR :) i know i dont look like i read, but I DO hahaha i read notes and textbook before exams! lol shrugs abourrrrit. its been a long thumb since i last read a book, as in really a BOOOOOOOOK ABOURRRRRIT. not textbook or magazine or wharrrever. yupiiex! :D :D :D

alright i shall attempt to do trigo assignments! and im happy cos tmr im going out with thwart! YAY<3! its been like, so long since i last went out in NON school u. seems like everytime i go out im always in sch u cos its always after sch? shrugs! now weekend when i go out can wear wharrrever i want! wheeeehooooo! make some noise for freedom abourrrit!

okay! math assignments here i come! lets have a threesome! assignment 1, assignment 2, and me! LOL -ROLLS EYES!-

xian
:D

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Friday, April 6
10.55pm

so today didn't turn out that bad, cos i went borders to wait for shrugger and i found books i wanna buy whoohooo! INTELLECTUAL BOURRIT! 8-) its like the first time in my upper sec life i wanna buy books :) atoto?? abourrit?? eeeeah!

and we had quite a lot of fun at shrugger's house today! the curry and the bread and the potato and the chicken. AND gv's mp3? nice songs bourrit! haha :) yayyy i was (re)productive cos i did 2 sketches! wheeehoooo i want to do more tonight after im done with touching up ss pt.

so did i mention i think my cartoon is UGLY. like UGLY. not professional at all :( aaaaahhhhhh i dont know if i shld redraw. my mum says can tell i put a lot of effort! lol! but whats the point, if my 200% is not even the teachers' 50%? shrugs abourrit? aaargh :( WHATEVER EMO AGAIN! shrugs!!!!

i think i'll just hand in the cartoon like that la. too bad la. shrugs. i'll just add some content to my proposal abourrit to show/prove that i got erm TRYYYYY to refine it and TRYYYY to improve it! 8-) LOL (so fake!)

its all good, after ss pt i'll do more sketching, tomorrow macs breakfast before psl session, town with my mum after io meeting, town with thwart on sunday. its all gooood. (I HOPE? :D)

off to do ss pt now! (actually i know i'll fail but umm just give it a try? oh shrugs.)

xian
:l

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Thursday, April 5
11.00pm

SHRUGS feeling so sian now abourrit. shrugs abourrit. i just feel like attitude-ing the whole world! i feel like rolling my eyes at everyone and everybody! shrugs! okok i must ERRRRR, try to be not attitude abourrrit. whatever. whooops! i did it again!!! -sings-

tomorrow's a really long day and im definitely not looking forward to it cos im really really tired and i wanna rest but life hates me and i hate life so i have stuff lined up the whole day so whatever whatever dotdotdotdot byebyebyebye. abourrit. (spoils the whole emo angsty mood abourrit)

xian
>:\

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Monday, April 2
6.45pm

shrugs just came back from sports fest! and believe it or not you winners i volunteered for refreshments abourrit! believe it or not i spent my last sports fest not in house shirt and culottes but in guides uniform. believe it or not i spent my last sports fest not under the shade but running around carrying cake/mineral water/fruits serving teachers in the sun. :) YES THIS IS LEOWZHIXIAN YESYES MANY PPL SAY IM DAMN LOSER ABOURRIT I AGREE BUT JUST SHRUG IT OFF!

okayrrr?! so echo was like the breast abourrrit. didnt eat a lot, but butter aka cellulite made me super full abourrit? shrugs. i love lubricatingrr the sausages/chicken wings/satay with a lot a lot of butter abourrittttt EEEEEEEAH.

and ohmygosh abourrrit linus is quite gay abourrrit?! cellulite is fun yesyes your best friend? shrugs? atoto? i taught linus and ahkeong how to say ATOTO! so cool w0rx. yayyy!

during the water bomb thingyyy i really thought we wouldnt get wet, but dotdot in the end like SHRUGS damn wet abourrit? when i went home i was so scared that i would fall sick.

so im like, super worried for math test now i gotta go gotta go gotta go, and i just wanna say i loooooove echo and wengkeong :)

and april fools was so boring i didnt get tricked big time. all the tricks i fell for all not interesting one SHRUGS. im so disappointed and i feel loser! and worse thing is i only managed to trick weiting! even the blur-est claire didnt get tricked by me abourrit!

okay okayyyy BYEBYE winners wish me good luck for math test abourrit.

xian
:)

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Wednesday, March 28
11.55pm

atoto i feel liuserr. cant believe i was so emo. hahaha im sorry for the previous angsty entry bourrit. hmm shrugs.

so today i was totally emo and stressed when i reached school. haha it was damn obvious, was it. but i was really very worried! and i was upset that i slept late, like AGAIN, cos i wanted to slpp early EEEEAH.

but as the day went by i became happier haha! cos 408 what :) hang arnd with 408 then will smile and laugh alrdy la! :D :D

haha so during guides weiting and i were totally freaking out LOL. but in the end the sec ones ROCK! omgosh i love them okayy. they finish learning already. like OMGOSH even though some ppl (coughs!) ate into our prac time but YESYES BABY WE DID IT! THE SEC ONES DID IT YAYYYY im so happy i think i stress for nothing! err but some ppl really made me wanna cry haha. weiting and i were like, can feel tears welling up in eyes alrdy?!?! atoto la. i shant elaborate more mans, late get emo?!

haha I LIKE THE SONG GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY LEGAL SOCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE POLKA DOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay okay whatever mans. when i have time i need to go mug this song and sing with yunting, olly and sipei in class AHAHAH :D :D :D she's like, so whatever!!!! lol ROCKS ABOURRRIT OKAYRRRR!

okay la whatever mans. im gonna shrug? okok i wanna slp now! then i shall wake up to do math! so guai! sher-rugssssss.

xian
:)

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Tuesday, March 27
11.15pm

okay im in a terrible terrible horrible mood now cos im really really very tired my eyes are closing and i want to sleep, and eois are over yet i still cant slp. im so unhappy with the loser stuff i've got to do. im seriously a loser inside out. aaaaargh. im tired i want my bed la. freaaaak.

so here goes the post eoi entry. uhuh uhuh. CHEM: sure fail. DUHH?! if you dont know about the relationship between chem and i, you dont know me. basically chem hate me, i hate chem, feeling's mutual. so, shrugs abourrit. PHYSICS and BIO? dunno bourrit. dont dare to place too high hopes. dotdot.

anyway i love lowyunting :) hahahaha today rocked okayyy! now i have sudden fetish with skirts and shorts lol. and my eyes are seriously closing im really tired la, really. i mug until so late for so many days and i really wanna slp. aaaargh very sian. i feel like shrugging off everything but cannot. responsibilities. responsibilities are like, seriously getting on my neves. OH ITS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY TO....... aaargh shut up.

i dong know why im still so angst and unhapppy after eois. okay actually i know why. but whatever whatever i can just sharrup abourrit cos everyone wants me to sharrup so here i go. -zips up mouth- and -ROLLS EYES-

xian
>:(

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Sunday, March 25
8.30pm

so, this is like, a pre-eois entry abourrit.

omgosh im feeling damn full cos i ate 2 plates of spaghetti that my mum cooked! hahaha today i ate a lot abourrit. breakfast i ate chocolates and pizza, like, WHAT A TOTALLY WEIRD COMBI. but eeeeah! lunch was like 2 bread and 1 donut from breadtalk?! a bit liuser but shrugs abourrit mans. my mum say i damn pig but sher-rugs? i need energy to mug. WOW MAKE SOME NOISE. and dinner, eeeeahrr spaghetti?! shrugs abourrit whats up for supper, im staying up late tonight.

and eeeeah-knee-way. the main point rrris....

for PHYSICS, i just hope im gonna do OKAY. i really really hope i wont fail, because i like physics. but im terrible arrit? but HEY, MAKE SOME NOISE, dont need to score well to like a subject. i hope i can at least pass, really. pleaaaaaaase abourrit! pretty pretty pretty please!

uhh, CHEM?! mug or dont mug, sure will fail. mug so that i wont fail that badly. last yr's eoy was like, 17/60 hahaha im still quite amused by myself abourrrit. hopefully i will not do THAT badly? shrugs abourrit. everytime during chem paper i do damn fast cos i skip a lot of questions hahaha. so the same thing will happen this time, blanks here and there. but hopefully i can do likerrr, better than last yr abourrit? i think i will never have a chance to prove to michelle to my ability to do chem cos i dont have ability to do chem, so eeeeah abourrit. just shrug it off.

BIO abourrit.... i hope i can do okay forrit? started mugging on sex only so far. shrugs abourrit mans. damn damn blur abourr cells and dna, hopefully i can likerr, try to gerrit tomorrow? -shrugs-


so i really hope monday and tuesday pass by quickly, cos everyone's emo-ing and stressing up cos of all these. yes including me. but after the eois we'll all feel better abourrit :) yay :)

and seriously i dont mug cos i aim to be some doctor so i totally totally need to like, do super well in sciences to get into that dream university. i dont really know what i wanna be in the future, im frickin aimless, like some liuser blur queen in rgs, not having any direction or whatever. i frickin mug so that i wont fail THAT badly. and so that if i fail, i can tell myself, HEY look i mugged. and if i fail, too bad la, means im too stupid. cant blame me for being stupid man. make some noise abourrit. im a frickin loser. eeeah.

kinda emo? life really sucks MORE with sciences eois. life sucked alrdy without all these. with these, even worse can. shrugs abourrit. sorry for being emo if you dont like it you can just skip this pparagraph or whatever. im looking forward to post science eois cos my ss pt is finished so its not that stressful for me yay abourrit :) just needa concentrate for math which would hopefully be fine, cos of mrs wee my babe :)

so EEEEEAH-KNEE-WAY! today is special day, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHKEONG!!!! :D :D :D :D hahahaha love you abourrrit. are you seeing this abourrit? lol shrugs!

so anywayrrr, just wanna wish all rg sec fours trip science ppl good luckrrr! tmr frickin sucks but we'll get through rrit abourrit man.

xian
>:'(

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Tuesday, March 20
9.30pm

i feel like shrugging off all sciences.

especially chem. there is no chemistry between me and chemistry.

why should i even talk abourr chem when i haven't eeven started muggingrrit yetrr?!?! im a total liuser abourrit. and until now i havent even finished mugging ONE single topic of physics thank you very much eeeah.

oh my gosh la somethumbs i really feel like shrugging EVERYTHING off eeeeah. gerrit? GERRIT ABOURRRIT?!?!?!?!!??!!?!?!?



okayrr okayrr enough of all that angst. shrugs abourrit. at least tomorrow im going shopping with shrugger. did i tell you the shopping trip with my mum was TOTAL LIUSER. i feel that i wasted my thumb la totally. hopefully tomorrow will be better eeeah and i wont feel that i wasted my thumb.

im gonna stay up late tonight to mug physics? lets hope it will be fruitful or it means no sleep for the next few days.

this aint the right time to shrug everything off.

xian
>:(

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Monday, March 19
1.15am

i know i shouldnt be here abourrrit but i'm really bored! and i wanna reward myself for finishing ss cartoon okay! nowrrr, whats left rris likerr, outlining kekex :) i think if i colourrit i will screwrrirrup so FORGET ABOURRRIT mans. i'll just leave rrit in black and white? yupiiex :D

hmm okayrrr i havent done ss essay its totally cheem abourrit can. i look at the question and im like, SHER-RUGS?!?!?! shrugs abourrrit mans.

okay so i was totally supposed to finish ss pt, ss essay, read about boxer rebellion, read about max weber + adam smith + mayard keynes BY TODAYYY. but all i did was only finish researching abourrr max weber + adam smith + mayard keynes, finish reading abourr boxer rebellion, and ss pt.

so IM UNPRODUCTIVE TOTALLY ABOURRIT. like, sorry abourrit la? shrugs abourrrit. okay! now i will go read about the 3 ppl for ss! and my dad is gonna wake up at abourr 6plus to do my ss essay OMGOSH SO GUAI :D :D haha i need to finish work mans cos tomorrow im going shopping with my mum! YAY! :D :D :D i wanna buy stuff im deprived i miss shopping like TOTALLY ABOURRRIT. i wanna buy this buy that buy these buy those! hahaha! :D :D

i've been listening to so many old songs! i think slow emo songs are sooo sweeet abourrrit! :D :D :D yay! i think slow emo songs played on classical guitar just ROCKKABOURRRIT MANS. wheeeehoooo BOURRRIT!

okayrr okayrrr leowzhixian dont be a liuser, now now go REAAAAAAAAD ABOURRRIT! i'm really excitrred abourr shoppingrr tomorrow! cos most of the ppl will be IN SCHOOOOL while my mum and i can own the shopping centres hahahaha YAYYYY ABOURRRIT :D :D :D kk i shall not place too much hopes! greater the hopes greater the disappointment! -GASPS!- ATOTO! :D :D

BYE SHRUGGERS! KEEP SHRUGGING COS I'VE BEEN SHRUGGING A LOT A LOT OF WORK OFF MY SHOULDERS! sher-rugs abourrit :)

xian
:)

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Saturday, March 17
3.00pm

so i was like, t0dAllii3xXx packing the stuff that my sis left in my room, and this piece of paper read: INFORMATION FOR PARTICIPANTS and what does it remind me of when i see the word participants? shrugs abourrit.....

gosh, im still in the psc mood! ahhhh! shrugs abourrit! my fever's gone but there's this sickness that cannot and will not be easily cured just by popping pills or sleeping, psc-sick! i miss psc like eeeeeah! i guess wengkeongrrr<33 is right, everyone is psc-sick, everyone's got psc blues.

it really doesnt matter how much or how little you blog about psc, it really doesnt matter how happy you sound when you blog about psc, it doesnt even matter if you even blog about psc, cos DEEP IN OUR HEARTS, THE MEMORIES ARE ETCHED DEEPLY ABOURRIT! :D :D :D okay i know my abourrit destroyed the whole emo moood hahaha but SHRUGS ABOURRIT :D :D

SO IM DECIDING WHETHER TO BUY ONE MORE CONVENTION SHIRT COS I LIKE IT AND ITS ONLY TEN BUCKS! :D :D and wengkeongrr by PBF is in charge of it! :D :D :D ahahaha! shrugs abourrit?

it hasnt really dawned upon me that I STILL HAVE ONE WHOLE PILE OF WORK TO BE DONE. UHUH UHUH, and THREE GROSS SUBJECTS' EOIS TO STUDY FOR! omgosh omgosh. but i seriously dont care abourrit? hahaha sorry abourrrit i just totally have attitude problem w0rx :) :) SHRUGS ABOURRIT.

like, seriously. just shrug it off man. JUST SHRUG IT!

xian
:D

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Thursday, March 15
9.15pm

SHRUGS THIS IS DAMN LOSER ABOURRRIT.

frstly MY BLOG SCREWED UP?!?! i dunno what happened abourrrit! when i came home to checkirrout, i could still see everythingrr! but nowrrr, NOTHINGRR. nothing to click below the box le w0rx, shrugs abourrit!! now this LOSER tempate is likerrr, FROM MY DUNNO HOW MANY YEARS AGO BLOGSKIN W0RX! cos miiex cant be botheredrr to get a newrr onerr! shrugs abourrit.

secondly i frickin had like a fever during guides camp abourrit? and euu know when you have fever abourrit, you'll be like, quite blur abourrit? so i waws blur until i likerrr, FELL DOWNRR?!?!?! SHRUGS ABOURRRIT! fall until cannot walk abourrit so frickin sent home. so GUESS WHAT BOURRIT? last night's sleep in tent and feeding all the mosquitoes hoping to pass Camping is now WASTED BYEBYE GO DOWN DRAIN LE W0RX. shrugs? just on my FACE already got 7 mosquito bites. YUCKS ABOURRIT. my arms got like numerous la kekex??

so EEEEAH-KNEE-WAYRR! i must must must blog abourrrrr EUUUU KNOW ORRRABOURRRIT LAAAAAA, PSCrr 07rr! WHOOHOO MAKE SOME NOISE ABOURRIT :D :D :D

so much to say, yknow. but i dont know how to say it, and where to start from. all i know is, it rockedddd :D AND AHKEONG ROCKS TOOO! :D :D :D haha so i dont really wanna blog DAY BY DAY what happened cos its BORING TO BLOG IN THAT MANNER!! and i dont have my programme booklet so i'll miss out on events w0rx! like, HELLORRRR?!?! shrugs abourrit?!?!? hahaha i just love everyone abourrrrit :D lol persians! love our tokyo drift cheer and oh oh our sexy back or rather sexy tail cheer lol. our mascot ROCKS LA. at first it got kinda mutatedrr by jeremy and jontan during the presentation of rg and vs psb, but surprisinglyrr it turned rroutr quite nice abourrit?!?! -gasps- ATOTO!!! hahaha and i love my wonderful chiobu necklace please! handmade de w0rx kekekex. but just quite loser cos i couldnt takerrirroff hahaha cos who ask me so loser go tie dead knot? SHRUGS ABOURRIT.

station games was like cool abourrrit cos of AHKEONG!!! :D :D :D YOU ROCK ABOURRRRIT!!! shrugs abourrrit SEND ME ALL OUR PHOTOS ABOURRRRIT! did i sayrr that this shrugger didnt come on second dayrrr cos he sprained his leg abourrrit?!?!?! SHRUGS?!?!?! somemore linus gimme false hope say he'll come during concert??! shrugs abourrrit! hahaha shrugs la you, when i saw you on wednesday morning your leg looked fine can! shrugs abourrrrit! :D :D hahaha!

oh the scavengers hunt was so fun la! lol sorry i kinda cheated?! kekex! persian liased with bering, kekex :) -winks at sherrie hahaha- and omgosh jontan the shrugger made my whole group waddle like a duck from one end of the corridor to another so that we can get the flag in his hands but SHRUGS ABOURRRIT?!?!?! it was specimen flag?!?! SHRUGS!!!!!!!!!!!! then damn funny, we saw jia, and we wanted post it notes from her. she said we had to make her laugh to get it, although she wasnt sure if there were any in kevy's pencilcase. and SHRUGS?!?! we did our cheer then she cant laugh. but TWO WORDS MADE HER LAUGH hahahaha i told my group to say SHRUGS ABOURRRIT! and she gave in! :D :D :D IM FATAL LA JIACONG!

concert was like, TOTALLY ROCKS ABOURRRRIT!!!! i love all the performaces la! can come to the conclusion that all psls are like, SUPER LAME LOL!!!! shrugs abourrrit! haha love rrrit! i think qamarul or HOWEVER YOU SPELL RRITR was DAMN GAYYYYYY! HEY SISTER!!!!!! shrugs abourrrit! he loves STRIKING PINK la shrugs dont you love the hot striking pink pen that i gave you during the talk abourrit? haha SISTERRRRRR! :D

haha do i really look like guojun?!?!?! i think both of us tooo chio abourrrit la shrugs! lol! sister send me the BIMBO photo we took on last day haha shrugs abourrrit.

shrugs abourrrit on last day i was DAMN EMO LAAAAAAA. shrugs abourrrit mans. from bernise's talk i become emo already. i was like telling pingfang OMG FEW MORE HOURS AND CONVENTION IS GONNA END. shrugs!!! :(

on last day it was damn emo la. hahaha i totally cried abourrrit?!?! hahaha shrugs abourrrit. i love you ahkeong! :D now im suffering from psc blues THANK YOU VERY MUCH! lol shrugs abourrit i miss pscrr 07rr abourrrit :( how come so fast over already. psc should totally be ONE WHOLE WEEK can. 2 and a half days not enough!!! :D EVERYONE SEND THE PHOTOS OF PSC CAN!!! hahah i want the photo of all the masking tapes on my back :D and i want photo with ahkeong!! hahahaha!

so after all that emo-ing and crying and hugging and taking photos-ing, char nattay weiting and i went for guides camp. all of us were suffering from withdrawal symptoms lol.
the seems like sims game rocked cos i was totally eating biscuits and peanuts and tomato sauce at my station HAHAHAH :D outdoor cooking was coolness cos GUESS WHAT, we managed to light our solid fuel. jasmine patrol is so totally pro please! did i mention the seasoning ROCKED. hahaha oh night games was quite fun! but after being blinfolded for so long, when i took off my blindfold i wanted to slp la hahaha. today morning woke up feeling tired and feverish abourrrit then loser until i fell down so im sent back from camp. im missing out on fun things like wide games and campfire. the LITERAL one, where there will rly be a fire. shrugs abourrrit! hope my patrol does well during the campfire w0rx! shrugs abourrrit i slept for like 6 hours just now. kekex im still a bit sleepy abourrrit.

my blog is seriously loser! shrugs abourrit? anyway, jontan and wengkeong, shrugs only got 1 G. its shrugs not shruggs! lol :D

xian
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